I am so beyond happy right now! I am so grateful right now! I cannot even describe the feelings I am feeling right now! ❤
Category: engagement
Godspouse events started!
The celebrations started last night and continue today, tonight, into tomorrow, and Sunday as well!
Loki asked me, I hope I like dancing as much as I said I did, ’cause he is going to keep me dancing and busy these next days and nights.
I met a number of Gods and Goddesses last night, but when I read one of their minds about something, before I could open my mouth to curiously ask anyone anything, I was being being rushed away and busy dancing once more with Loki. When the dance slowed last night, I looked at Loki, I wanted to ask him something, but I decided maybe these next several nights is not worth asking certain curious questions. But, Loki was actually the first to start bringing up questions, he thinks it is best to be out, open and clear with several things, and I smiled to him being honest there.
He asked me, why did I love to dance so much?
I asked him in return, “Why do you like fire so much?”
Loki laughed about my response, it means I was not going to answer him right away as he was not going to answer me in return right away. Which is fine by the both of us. ♥
Loki reminded me, why I was there, why there is a celebration lasts for days and nights, the celebration is for us, our marriage, for me becoming Spouse to him. I know I will not forget this. ♥
I had a fantastic night, last night. Loki is waiting to pull me back out immediately tonight, but I have to work inside my body, and I told Loki, “Help me close faster and I can leave faster…”
Loki’s reply, “Done.”
Well, tonight is going to be fun! ♥
Early Celebration with Loki
Loki asked me, if I will like an early celebration with him tonight? Of course, I do not mind! I just curiously wondered on the occasion, but all he said was, “Early start to the festivities ahead.” This made me even more curious just yet!
Then tonight, I feel as though I harmed myself, bodily. Loki did “tell me so,” but he allowed me to make my own choices, though he did distinctly warn me about this, getting sick to my stomach. Worse, it’s the blood I cannot stand coming from myself…
Loki told me, in assurance, he can heal me, and he has been. So far, I feel less soreness, less pain, hopefully soon, no more blood-unless he already stopped this immediately.
It’s odd to admit this. I only share this because I thought Haides was the only one who can do this for me…yet, here’s Loki, with me now, healing me as time passes, encouraging me to stay calm as he heals my body. Then Loki told me, that he cares for me, more than how he can ever describe his love for me. Loki told me that, spoken clearly in truth here, he cares for me just as Haides cares for me, and I’ve been with Haides from the beginning of Time started. But, Loki told me, he just met me in this life, that we have never ran into each other before this one, and somehow, I cannot find myself pulling away at all no longer from him.
Loki made a comment a night or so ago, while I was inside my body, about how we are like the Scorpion and the Spider. I had no idea where he was coming from with this comment, it sounded romantic, but it also sounded wisdomic? Scorpions, I was told by two close friends of mine, remind them of Fire, in which Loki reminds them of Fire as well, and in my past, Spiders have always been “my thing.” No idea exactly just yet over why Spiders? Odd creature to grasp right there to even begin with. But, somehow, Spiders were in my past, and they still are attracted toward me…they just suddenly stop what they are doing, coming straight toward me, like becoming intensely attracted toward me. Once, I placed my foot down inside my closed off garage and a spider accidentally ran into my foot, backed away, looked up at me, like as though the spider was communicating to me, and I told this spider, “Pardon me!” I stood still and the spider looked back down at my foot, back up to me, in knowing and, minding this spider’s own business, easily went around my foot, looked back at me, curiously or knowingly, and then turned back and went on it’s way underneath the car, as I cautiously this time took another step forward.
Interesting, I thought to myself that night, and I still find that event interesting to this day. I also end up with spiders on me in my sleep, which I accidentally turn over in my sleep and accidentally squish them, but still. I used to have Spiders crawl onto my hand, easily, stay still as I move them back outside, in which they do not wish to leave my hand right away, but looking from me, to the grass blade, me to the grass blade, then back at me again, going up my arm, but then, like as though the spider is hesitating, stopping and turning back to the grass blade and leaving my arm, but then looking back to me, watching me like as though fascinated by me now, haha. How very interesting…
Well, I better follow Loki’s concerns and healing instructions and follow through. I am grateful to him, beyond my words can ever express. ♥
Soon-to-be Godspouse with Loki!
I am now getting married to Loki by the end of this month, but before and after this marriage, Loki let me know there’s going to be Celebrations, for days and nights, which starts this Thursday, tomorrow-my body’s Birthday. ♥
Oh wow. He planned everything out beforehand and even let me join in so I will know what to expect next. How sweet of him to remember my two reactions I had with Haides and my two marriages with Haides, of having panic attacks inside my body. Loki told me, he does not wish for me to have one of those or it will not help for the celebrations of ours. ♥
Loki told me all of this as we were dancing. ♥
In Asgard
I had no idea what exactly these celebrations will be like, so Loki took me to Asgard to show me a celebration still happening. I wonder whom’s wedding that is for? I wasn’t certain, but it looked like all of Asgard was there for that marriage celebration. Loki showed me Odin, declaring he is beautiful, which Odin is…when I woke, he looked like…someone who was misplaced with wardrobe and taking out of the Lord of the Rings series of Elves and placed into Asgard on a throne, he just sat down on the throne and I looked to Loki and told him, “You are right. I believe you.” Loki smiled to this as he took me out to dance with the others.
I love dancing! Inside and outside my body!
I asked him about our marriage, just out of curiosity. Loki told me, by the end of this month. Well, since he is speaking of a celebration that lasts days and nights before and after the marriage, I asked him, when does he know that will start. “Tomorrow,” was his reply.
Me: It starts tomorrow? Not tonight?
Loki: No, tomorrow. The celebration will start tomorrow.
Me: But…that’s my body’s Birthday?
Loki: Even more better reason to celebrate than the one we already have is enough to last days and nights.
I had to smile with him on that one. I wondered who’s wedding that was, since I was at the celebration, I didn’t find out whom, but when Loki announced the celebration to everyone, I was in surprise to his announcement. Suddenly out of no where came the bride, who was beyond beautiful in her dress, hugging me tightly; she was beyond excited for me, she said, I was just like her, marrying a God as well. I wasn’t going to correct her, for it is her celebration and her big day, so I just smiled back. She was so excited for me, but hiddenly, secretly, she was sort of nervous for later that next night.
Loki danced me out again, and I love dancing with him! He is a great dancer, and he told me, he was thinking of making me wear white.
I shrugged and told him, I wasn’t in white at the weddings I were in…
Loki: “How many times were you married to Haides again? How many times have you probably wore white to those marriages of yours? You seem to like white, you are wearing white right now.”
Me: “I still don’t understand why I wore blue to both of those marriages. My eyes are not blue, are they?”
Loki, smiling to this, as he twirled me real fast, and kept dancing with me: “No, they are not. Blue stands for loyalty, beautiful color as well; all the royals in the past wore blue to their banquets and celebrations. You will be fine in white once more. It doesn’t seem to harm you wearing a white dress now, I highly doubt it will harm you later at our marriage then as well! Different dress as always for you.”
Too true, I always have new dresses and I was wearing a whitish dress right then. Loki made it an amazing time for me. ♥
So, I am having a days and nights celebration starting this Thursday, tomorrow and getting married with Loki, becoming a Godspouse. ♥
Loki & the Engagement
As you can guess, I am engaged with Loki; he has been asking me to marry him, to become a Godspouse of his. I don’t quite say, “No,” but I also don’t quite say, “Yes” either.
We discussed this yesterday, about the wedding. Loki told me, when ever I “desire” this, it will happen. I remember sitting back and trying to weigh out my emotions right then… How was I feeling? I was trying to remember what Desire even feels like? Then I thought too much on it, which just led to amusement on his end.
Then Loki brought it up one more time, but he asked one thing of me, to get to know him more.
I like this answer-actually, I love it. Makes everything seem taken slow-paced, calm, and in the mean time, I get to read a ton of a lot of Norse Mythology.
I know, I know, I’ve been avoiding Norse Mythology over the other Mythologies for my own personal reasons; I dated a man in the past, inside my body, who loves Norse. The man I dated basically breathed off of Norse religion and myth. So, I kept hearing the things he told me about the myths, but none of it ever stayed, I was too busy being nervous around him. But, I do remember his reaction when he learned I am not into fighting like he is, which all the other women he dated were into fighting back, me though…he learned, I only fight back out of defense more than offense. Which he thought was curious about myself here; I felt at a point a slight “Guinea Pig” for him, where he would just suddenly want to trip me, but I avoiding his foot by stepping over his foot, loosing him once more, since I could read his mind and using wisdom know his next moves before he made it, but sometimes, that man that I dated would throw me off completely-it was the times he never once thought the thought of his next move, like pinning me against the wall outside, pinning me in bed. I was thrown off when ever he didn’t think of his next move to make! Then he learned I am more of a lover than a warrior, he sighed sadly to this, and I just shook my head at him. If it was going to be a problem, then there is a problem with his end by far… It was and wasn’t at the same time. And, unfortunately, that’s how we branched off from there.
Since then I never once wanted to know or speak of Norse Mythology or religion until just recently. It’s stupid, I know of this. Trust me, I cover my face toward this. Since I remember asking him in confusion, “Why do you believe you have to die fighting whilst you keep on getting in trouble with the police for fighting so often? Shouldn’t you cool it then fight when you need to? :?” That was my date’s religion and personal belief, whilst mine has always been Love.
So, getting passed this and around this, going off to read very soon about Loki and Thor as well. I might as well be better off reading everything. Only this time I don’t have someone “exactly” shadowing me while I read all of this like I had someone shadowing me while reading through Greek and Roman Mythology.
Nathan.
He was, in a sense, my teacher, or that’s what others saw when they saw Nathan and I together, him teaching me something else, shadowing me when I read through information.
Then someone last night made a remark about how I fell in love with the teacher, vice versa happened, it was humor, of course, but it gave me wild and strange dreams when I fell asleep. Not too cool with the dreams there, hah.
So, reading through this Mythology very soon is going to be interesting enough all by it’s self. But, if Loki wants me to give this a try, I might as well give it a go…
Why?
Why are things so much better going for me outside my body than they are inside my body?
I am engaged, I am married, I have a crush on another as well; I can sleep around, share energies, emotions, etc. with others without one consequence…but inside my body, I am (purposely) single, I am not engaged no longer (not for the last 3 years), and if I sleep with 1 man, I have tons of consequences for sharing emotions, energies and all of this, I cannot do the same as I do outside my body; my body instantly reacts into bladder infections off the bat when I sleep with just one man, so I never sleep with anyone alive and mortal.
It just figures…
I cannot quite remember last night?
I don’t quite too well remember last night, at least, not inside my body?
I think I am just sore from yesterday’s wedding day? I’m not entirely too sure? It’s mainly around my chest area and upper back area? I don’t understand this either? My nipples are swollen as well? How can a bra do this to you?
I remember saying inside my body, to my love, Haides, I wished to go home now…
“Home” for me is the Underworld. I’m not sure what all happened there or anything? I remember…well, I also remember the next second being with Loki else where, not in the Underworld, kissing him and then, that’s where my memory fades…?
Hm. I guess I need meditating tonight after work!