Day 4: Loki’s Portable Altar

Day 4: Loki’s Portable AltarI have bought this portable altar for Loki. It can be easily traveled with, and I fell in love with the altar. Fantastic altar made, indeed! <3I set up the altar as much as “pushed” as available. Including offering sweets when asked (by Him).You can purchase this (or other items), including other altars, at https://www.etsy.com/shop/RareEarthWoodworks.

Altar and Devotional Candles

Last night, when I got home, I lit a number of nine candles.

Thing is, no matter how I tried, somehow the outter candles shown bright. The only one I can recall that shown the brightest was Loki’s candle that I light for Him.

Hades, Goddess of Love, and a barrier candle did not shine as bright as Loki’s did. Which I thought was rather off. Usually, they always light in what ever way the candles do. They usually light and dim themselves on their own, but last night, this wasn’t the chance.

I think this is the first time that I caught my candles doing something different for myself to see. I remembered glanced over the altar and seeing the Love candle brightly shining as well as the other five candles.

I decided not to ask questions. I thought, since just the four outter candles, the Love candle, and Loki’s candle were the only ones shining brightly over the other candles, I’m just going to let my altar do what ever it wants to do last night.

Shopping for the altar.

Going out to find plates for the candles on the altar. Hopefully I can find something nice like I did last time. Hm…

Beyond Thankful to Loki

This evening was a mess. I walked home from not wishing to continue an awkward and uncomfortable dinner, as well as being told, “wearing a dress is childish.” (I didn’t feel at all comfortable with sitting at a high table around a crowded restaurant, to be honest, I would rather wait for a booth or chairs closer to the ground, so, I was told, in a rude manner directed at me, that it’s “my fault” for wearing a childish dress. Excuse me, allow me to point out the fashion in this dress and how many compliments I was getting for wearing a brand new, brand named, $34 woman’s dress, not a girl’s fashion, in the size of medium. I mean really? I lost my appetite and left after I was told, rather loudly, after being invited may I mention I was told this, that he is NOT paying for me, telling the whole restaurant how broke I am. I excused myself quietly from the table, knowing complete strangers in a crowded restaurant were watching the scene my father just made.

So, I lost my appetite, and instead of looking for altar supplies at a store in the same plaza, I walked home. Something I didn’t realize right away, I had no phone on me and I was walking down the same road a young woman was knocked unconscious, raped and left to be found by the police.

I asked out loud if Loki was there with me. Big response of an automatic, “YES” from Loki. This made me feel better walking alone for so long on less sleep, a just-bought water bottle in hand from a Starbucks, and with Loki nearest me, I feel safe.

Loki showed me the most amazing views while walking. The sun setting over the trees, the beauty of the trees, and the greenery. I wished I had enough time to curiously look around with Loki near. The sights are so beautiful here. ❤

I am thankful. Thank you, Loki. ❤

New Devotional Candles and Ritual Candles

I noticed I now need to write down which candles are for whom or which candles are for which rituals. Gorgeous candles by both Beth (FiberWytch) and Nornoriel Lokason!
Some are located in convenient storage bags and some I’m like, where should I place these? For my altar is so, so small. Hm. I shall figure this out soon as I label them. P.S., I kept them in their bags to reserve them until use (I’m hoping this will, haha!). Hence why the candles are as well inside their original bags.

Re-organized The Altar for a Successful Ritual

I re-organised the altar early today, thankful to Nono (Nornoriel Lokason) for Loki’s pendulum, devotional necklaces and bracelets, stones. As well as I am thankful to Beth (from FiberWytch) for the candles (it’s still lit, yay!), handmade runes pendant necklaces, empowering necklace, and the devotional bracelet for being a Godspouse to Loki. I wish to thank Jessika Davis for the stones, the Relationship Shaker Stones, as well as all the others on the altar. All beautiful. Thank you. ❤ ❤ ❤

First Day of Spring

I lit Tulips (it’s this Tulip scented candle) last night, I lit a Hydrangea scented candle today. Only the best for the first day of Spring! ❤

I am about to eat, place away laundry, do a special bathing ritual, then dress up in this unique causal and fancy Spring wear white floral, long dress. I've never wore this dress before and it's been bagged off inside my closet for over a year now. So, since this is that special occasion, I shall wear this! 🙂

Today feels oh-so magical, and I mean as in Magick. Through the peace and bliss I am deeply feeling, maybe I should do some rituals of my own by candlelight tonight? 😉

Passing Out during The Night

My job, working doubles, which I’m slowly getting used to, has been making me so, so sleepy. I’ve learned that I increase in sleepiness at times, sometimes when Loki is around. Maybe it’s a comfort thing? Where I feel extremely comfortable around Loki, where I just easily pass out.

I find that kind of awful, to be honest. Loki was just rubbing my back, lightly speaking with me, in gentle tones, and plow! My head hits the pillow, and I am out like a light bulb. Loki told me, teasingly, the next morning, when I woke, “Try not to fall asleep next time.” Oh, the embarrassment…

Maybe it is just me?
When I was little, like as a tiny, tiny child, the only easy way I could sleep was to snuggle to my grandmothers or my mother. That was my way of sleeping. I guess I always got so comfortable, I would be instantly asleep. Rarely, but it does happen, now in days, if I can’t sleep what so ever, and Loki or Hades is not around, I wake up my mother, who still snuggles with me. And, my mom and I both pass out like a light bulb was switched off for us.

I think it was how I grew up. Comfort is a big thing for me. It makes me fall asleep easily.
With Hades, I would easily fall asleep around him. Maybe it’s the peaceful vibes that were comforting to me, still are comforting.
With Loki, wanting to do or say something so I can act or listen, comforting me just makes me pass out, like last night. I was out in a countdown of 3, 2, 1, and I was out next to Loki, who decided not to wake me up. Instead he took off my glasses, took my kindle, charged it, turned my kindle off, and covered me up, as my candle kept burning next to my bed.

I didn’t wake up last night until 5 hours later, my room smelling of Gardenas from the white scented candle Loki left burning on the altar. I was surprised I woke to brush my teeth, change clothes, and go right back to sleep.

Sleepy, sleepy me…

New Gifts to Loki and New Gifts from Loki

Yesterday, on my way home, I finally found votive candle holders. But, the very first thing I saw that immediately grabbed my attention was a dress being displayed.

A black delicate dress displayed for everyone to see. I curiously looked around for it, but could not find it on my own; an employee was about to pass that I stopped, whom happily asked me, what size I usually wear? Usually a medium or I could also fit into a large if there are no mediums, she smiled happily, telling me, “This is the last medium right here!” I smiled to this, I didn’t even try it on, I bought this as well. There were only two left, the medium I bought and an XXS size. I’m pretty lucky!

Loki asked for a devotional cord by Beth (Beth is well known for these devotional cords). His expectations seemed shocking, but since this is Loki’s money, I’m fine by this. (I read over what all Loki told me to write to Beth by message and that’s when I went into shock, more of a surprise than anything else. Loki asked for a lot! Oh my!)

Oh no, Loki is not demanding in anyway at all, I thought to myself. Loki wants this conversed over and made as soon as possible, though I told Beth, from myself, “Take your time.” I had to cover my face, reminding myself, quietly, almost in a mumble to myself, “This is my husband. This is my husband I am married to. I am married to him. I married (the demanding) Loki, that demands specific things from my friends online… Loki is my husband, he is my spouse. You know what, I accept now my husband is picky! I love my new husband, and I am married to him. This is quite normal, everyone has husbands and wives like this!” That’s how fast I got over this.

Loki’s comment to this hearing myself and watching my response, “You remember I am a God?”
I was comparing Loki to mortal men and women. Oops! I responded back to Loki, in a defeated sigh, “Gods are picky…”

I bought the dress for myself to wear for Loki. The dress is like a mixture of every day wear to fancy wear, with a hints of both Spring and Summer with it. It’s absolutely see-through delicate, light fabric, very light to the touch. I love this long, elegant dress.

Withdrawing Claims

Hades withdrew his claim over me, doesn’t mean I may not see Hades ever again, but I wasn’t certain, still may not be certain, over what this exactly means?

Does this mean I am still a Godspouse to Hades? Does this mean we are not connected?

I think maybe Hades and I did disconnect to some point and degree. For once, Hades did not stop me leaving the Underworld, I never felt that longing pull of Hades’ toward myself, inside and outside my body.

Maybe I’m thinking this over too much, maybe? But, I feel maybe a cord was severed, one that was somehow attached to us, Hades and I. Maybe?

Then on my altar, I have these bells. One of them represents Hades. Meaning our relationship, us. After we, Loki and I got married, I thought by accident, someone must have knocked off Hades’ bell, I picked the bell up, believing this. Loki never said a word.

Then again, I remember Loki standing, listening to what Odin was explaining to me; Odin let me know, it is just an idea, like a random possibility that may not or can happen, about the idea of Hades willingly leaving me. This does not mean as it does for mortal relationships, like a permanent separation and disliking of one another, but instead, just a separation of understanding and accepting. I thought that was an odd thing to bring up at the time this was brought up…

Tonight, on the altar, the same bell somehow fell off the altar again. Hades’…

I’m trying to understand this message of the bell falling off of the altar? What does it mean? Do I place the bell back onto the altar again until I understand or do I place Hades’ bell off of the altar, accepting this sudden message given, like accepting a new kind of change? I don’t know?

I really don’t know.
This is a vast change. One where I understand this with wisdom, having to remind myself, this is not like a mortal break-up. But, I couldn’t help it. I think maybe Hades had withdrew his claim over me for some time before I entered the Underworld for a question on this.